This time last week it was my 19th birthday and since then I’ve lost the love of my life, destroyed my family’s beliefs in me, realised I can’t trust anyone, seen a real life OD happen to someone I know, watched Kian’s face as he realised something he’d been letting eat him alive for years [...]

So, my big 19th birthday yesterday ended up not being very good at all. Everyone promised that we would do something for it but most of them were really hungover from the party on Thursday night and just wanted to lounge around. And they said that we’d do something today but everyone has forgotten I [...]

I guess being told we have to wear hotdog costumes is the horrible producers’ way of getting back at Dieter for organising the party too easily and everyone is dead angry. Not me though, I dunno what all the fuss is about, I think it’s hilarious! And so random lol. Hot dogs of all things!
But [...]

I can’t believe it, amazing, Dieter pulled it out of the bag! All sorted! Thank God. I’m sure we’ll have a wonderful time tonight.

For my cousins birthday party, this looks really like the cake I made. Feeling all nostalgic now. Stupid tasks.

Cocktail-flavoured jelly beans!
I wish we would have been able to get these in time for tomorrow, they sound brilliant – perfect!

All systems are go – serious planning chaos here. Tried to come up with an idea for a cool ‘signature’ cocktail with Emm earlier but couldn’t think of anything remotely interesting. I don’t really know alcohol enough. (Later on she snapped at me for trying to motivate people. Trying not to let it bother [...]

Fantastic time last night, can’t wait for more today, but I’m knackered, just woke up to grab some water, back to bed now me thinks.

Aaaarrrggggh guess what!! After all my panic and sitting in the bus all the way back to London with a massive knot in my stomach, convinced that we had blown it and they were going to expel us from the show…they come back and tell us that we’re off to CROATIA for the next festival! [...]