Claire » Miserable

sick to my stomach

clairefishwish — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 17:41:24 +0000

This is it…

The last thing I need

clairefishwish — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 13:58:52 +0000

Facebook poll set up by producers currently has ME voted as most likely to be David Hampton. I could kill myself right now. Doesn’t anyone have any sympathy for me at all??

It’s the last thing I need

Dieter and David Hampton

clairefishwish — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 16:22:58 +0000

Don’t know what to make of this at all. Why isn’t Dieter being broken down by David Hampton??

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The man really is incredible.

He’s aced practically every task thrown at him on WKS.

He’s totally bagged ‘the girl’, sweeping hot-tot Emma off her feet and into his bed. And, like the Oracle, he dispenses sage advice to his fellow contestants, all of which look to him like the wise Gladiator he is.

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The just and the meek

clairefishwish — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 11:37:55 +0000

It’s cold today. No one is really talking. Noone trusts anyone anymore. I’m pretty sure some people think DH really could be me.

Despite the fact I was the one who lost more than anything.

Lord, forgive us our sins.

It all ends tomorrow

clairefishwish — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 01:22:31 +0000

I can’t sleep. Something feels wrong. Someone here IS David Hampton. They must be. I’m sleeping in a bus with someone who ruined my life and ripped my heart out. I feel like Daniel in the lion’s den. God give me strength.

Dorset

clairefishwish — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 07:35:57 +0000

Dorset is possibly the worst place on earth. No exaggeration.
We don’t even have any stupid tasks to take our minds off this.

Boredom is a killer.

alone

clairefishwish — Sat, 12 Sep 2009 08:20:07 +0000

It keeps sinking in over and over just how alone I am now and what I’ve done to deserve this.

Scarred

clairefishwish — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 22:06:58 +0000

Emma has finally been struck a blow but it’s different to everyone else… Jude spilled something boiling on her face and now she has really big ugly scarring across half her beautiful face! Someone as image-obsessed as her is obviously gutted and I feel awful for her. Was it an accident? I don’t even know. I don’t trust anyone anymore. Every single person has been suspected now.

Turns out Jude is also homosexual, which totally shocked me. Maybe it explains why he overcompensated being a real ‘lad’. He has a lot of self-hate over the issue and continues to deny it – but Hampton posted pictures of him being very intimate with another man – it’s just not worth denying it Jude.

I have to admit to finding it a bit difficult though, as the bible so clearly states that same-sex relationships are wrong. I wrestle with this because in my heart I feel that love is love and that if two people are happy together, it shouldn’t matter what sex they are. I will pray on this. Actually, I’m praying more than ever now because I really believe I am in a hell-on-earth situation, and need the guidance of the Lord more than ever now.

But no one seems to care about me. Or what I’ve lost. Tete can get off the drugs, Emma can get plastic surgery and Jude will be fine. But I’m never getting back what I’ve lost. Not ever.

Oh. Emma has ‘casually’ dropped that I’m DH several times now, I don’t think she honestly could believe that but she certainly enjoys the emotional blackmail element of it. She’s raging about the place in the background as I write this, making a big scene about her poor face, absolutely no dignity for the situation. I bet it doesn’t even leave a scar. Whereas my heart is broken forever

All that’s left to do is stew in this awful bus, hating each other; hating ourselves.

Dieter and Emma

clairefishwish — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 14:01:42 +0000

Well turns out Emma and Dieter have started a relationship. Woop dee doo. I couldn’t care less. They both seem to hate me anyway. For all I know they could have planned this from the start, both of them, orchestrating the whole thing for their amusement. I mean you notice how nothing dirty has come out on that blog about either of them??

Poor Kian

clairefishwish — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 11:24:53 +0000

Well something finally happened and oh gosh it’s a big one. Bloody David Hampton again. Kian’s gotten it this time. His ‘mix cd’ that was fleabayed finally got back, he puts it on and it’s a recording of him confessing to Dieter a while ago that he hit a kid with his car while drink-driving and drove off in a panic.

He might well have killed him! He doesn’t know of course. Anyway we’ve all found out now and it’s just awful. I can’t even look him in the eye anymore knowing what he’s done.

It’s a horrible thing to have happened to him, and a horrible thing in general, and the most horrible is probably stupid Hampton and nowgetbacktoreality going to CONSIDERABLE lengths to make sure we all know and Kian’s life falls apart.