Emma has finally been struck a blow but it’s different to everyone else… Jude spilled something boiling on her face and now she has really big ugly scarring across half her beautiful face! Someone as image-obsessed as her is obviously gutted and I feel awful for her. Was it an accident? I don’t even know. [...]

I just want to go home. I hate this. I hate all of it. I want my boyfriend back. I have no one. My brilliant wonderful summer, haha, how stupid of me. The one thing I’ve learned, if anyone is still bothering to read this (and not the stupid David Hampton blog instead) is that [...]

I don’t even know who I am without him anymore. He’s not taking my calls again. Of course. This is what I get.

So yes. Jonathon finally got in touch with me. Turns out the reason he doesn’t want to speak to me (and hasn’t done for ages) is because of some stupid RIDICULOUS camera-film that frame me as some kind of slutty girl when I didn’t do a DAMN thing wrong, this is ####### unbelievable. It’s just [...]

It’s over. Everything. No wedding, no beautiful honeymoon, no children. Jonathon never wants to speak to me again, our relationship has ended. The last two years have been working up to my stupid hopes and dreams and now it’s gone and I am dead.

I just set our relationship status on facebook to “It’s complicated” and he approved the change like 20 minutes later. So the only thing he DOES respond to is confirmation that we’re going downhill?
I feel sick to my stomach.

So, my big 19th birthday yesterday ended up not being very good at all. Everyone promised that we would do something for it but most of them were really hungover from the party on Thursday night and just wanted to lounge around. And they said that we’d do something today but everyone has forgotten I [...]

Didn’t go back to sleep; been lying awake and thinking about my boyfriend. Still no word, of course, you may have gathered. If he thought I would give up after just a few days, he thought wrong. I’m in this for good. I haven’t taken my promise band off. I hope he hasn’t either.
Come on [...]

If Jonathon doesn’t start speaking to me soon I think I’m going to go out of my mind. I love him, I want to marry him, and be with him forever. It’s the real thing. Why am I wearing my promise ring otherwise?
And he won’t talk to me, won’t even acknowledge my calls, it’s like [...]

The thing is, this lot don’t really know much I’m going through right now, but I don’t really want to talk about it. I can pretend a bit it isn’t happening that way.