Claire » Billy

Is it crazy?

clairefishwish — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 09:18:31 +0000

Okay, this might sound absolutely crazy but, is there any chance do you think that someone on the bus might be behind it? I don’t know. Everyone here seems to hate my guts, Dieter’s been pretty bloody blasé about the whole thing, and Tete is just being Little Miss Tragedy, everyone is so sympathetic to her about Billy and her ‘withdrawl’ from the drugs, no one seems to notice my broken heart. I’m sorry, but when it comes to drugs – everyone knows the dangers. You make your bed… Jude is just sulking and Kian is sitting around all day staring out the window. I don’t know.

People are capable of more than you think, I guess.

Drugs

clairefishwish — Mon, 24 Aug 2009 17:51:27 +0000

Tete is still behaving very strangely. She’s lying in bed looking totally zonked. I don’t know if she’s maybe heartbroken from being away from Billy or if it’s something else.

I had this scary thought earlier today and I would normally never say anything like this but what if she is on drugs? I don’t know much about drugs, never been interested. Never taken anything and don’t want to.

My friend’s brother was on drugs for a bit during school and she told me he completely lost the plot and wasn’t the same ever again. He thought he was Jesus, and that parents were satanic. Who wants to feel like that? They can only be bad news… I don’t know what I could do to help an addict…

Tete…..

clairefishwish — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 09:05:26 +0000

Speaking of people not getting hammered, I’m a bit worried about Tete. I notice she seems sort of out of it all the time and especially since Billy left it’s more noticeable. I’d say she was on something if I didn’t know that she doesn’t take drugs and hardly drinks because of her past.

I think she is lovesick (tell me about it Tete!) She doesn’t seem to be doing too well, really. I would never judge anyone in their time of need, I just want to help, but I think she needs to start taking care of herself. I just want her to be okay.

Next task.. dun dun dun!

clairefishwish — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 21:47:25 +0000

Just found out about the next task – organising a massive party ourselves, getting drinks promotions and people to play and everything. From really rubbish tasks to really challenging ones all of a sudden! Only thing is, Billy’s not allowed to come. Tete is going to be gutted… she never does anything without him anymore.

Croatia!!!!

clairefishwish — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 21:33:14 +0000

Aaaarrrggggh guess what!! After all my panic and sitting in the bus all the way back to London with a massive knot in my stomach, convinced that we had blown it and they were going to expel us from the show…they come back and tell us that we’re off to CROATIA for the next festival! Wow! I love you producers xxx!!! I’m sorry I ran away and I promise to never, ever to do it again! I’ll do every task you give me with a big smile !!!

I can’t believe it, that’s two holidays abroad in one month after Spain! It’s mental.

Really SO excited. It’s one of the Garden Zadar festivals and the lineup is a lot like Global Gathering I think. Hopefully it won’t be as much of a shock to my system this time around, and I can dance around with everyone free of the silly drama from before. Plus it’s a new foreign country, it’s going to be the furtherst I’ve ever been from home and a different culture and everything so I really can’t wait. We’re off to the airport tomorrow.

And once again – I’m so so sorry we stormed off now, and am feeling seriously guilty now after the group basically told them we didn’t care anymore. Kian, Jude, Dieter and Emma reached an agreement with them – I sort of kept out of negotiations like before, wasn’t really too involved, it’s not my strength! (Tete’s off with Billy again). But they’ve put up with us being really stroppy so I’m so so sorry and I do care :/

Not again!

clairefishwish — Wed, 12 Aug 2009 11:37:36 +0000

David Hampton strikes again… poor Tete. At least I’m not alone. But those pictures are awful. Really, dreadful. The thing is, and this might sound a bit twighlight zone-ish but whoever sent out those photos in the first place must be on the bus, right? I have an idea…watch this space

Love is…

clairefishwish — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 22:33:01 +0000

Ooookaaaay….Tete’s just gone to bed with someone we only just met. I’m not being judgemental or anything, but I hope everything is going to be alright, I’d be really worried about her if I didn’t think Billy was a nice enough guy. It’s probably all fine, I just don’t want anyone to do anything they regret. Besides I don’t really see what the point of jumping straight into bed is, Isn’t ‘making love’ just that – about love? I mean they just met!

Billy

clairefishwish — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 11:45:04 +0000

Ladies and Gentlemen, we have toilet paper!!! A wonderful solution to another pointless ‘doing without’ style task again. Thank you Billy, wherever you came from…