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I’ve calmed down a bit since my last entry, and am starting to feel sort of isolated and really lonely. I’m probably just being really stupid, but I can’t seem to manage to keep up with these people. And it’s still such early days. We’ve only done one festival. But I’ve got to be myself from the off and I want to stay in every now and then, to read, or just sit quietly If I’m going to even get through this show, let alone win it, I’ll need those moments of calm.
These people are probably really nice but I don’t really get them, or at least, I don’t think they get me. Plus I’m sort of beginning to worry that people are making fun of me behind my back about my promise band, the fact that they call me God Squad to my face – well how is that meant to make me feel? I know it’s all jokey and in good fun but I just feel so rubbish right now, I sort of want to go home and watch bad TV
